Summer

So summer is finally here...well has been for 3 weeks I guess. I started classes at Mountain View last Monday (Government and Economics) and my Economics class is at 7:30! I thought I was going to get to sleep in at least until 8...but no! Plus my teacher is from Liberia so understanding him is so hard! It's a hard class. I love my Government class though. Thank God it only goes until July 3rd...then I just have about a month before band camp starts. I'm not ready for that at all! I love college. I know that TWU isn't going to be anything like Mt. View...but I love college. I love the freedom you have. I have a 3 hr break inbetween classes...which actually is a pain in the behind...but I can read my chapter for Government and I found the piano labs to keep me busy! And they have a Subway! I loooove Subway. Only 2 and a half weeks left!

Summer school

Man... Summer school was a drag. I didn't even want to take the full course of Government. I wanted to take up the privilege of the 10 day course. But the teacher decided to quit. And on top of that I had to pay full price. I was very lucky my grandparents love me because my counselor told my I would be paid for but they decided last year that they were no longer giving away scholarships. Not even to the kids that were trying to better themselves but maybe couldn't afford it. I got lucky. Now I understand why they took it away to the other kids who are dumb and failed the class because they didn't put fourth effort but to take it away from the others is stupid. When we got there of course our glorious school had nothing organized. So we all got into our classrooms and talked to each other for about an hour before the books where even brought to the classrooms. By the way the teachers were all promised books and worksheets prior to the start of the day. But because we are G.P. nothing is right. So this didn't help many Warriors perspective on "North" Our librarians weren't even there to check out Elmo's to the teachers with nothing to do but show an educational film. So most teachers had their kids sit around and visit for 5 HOURS!!! I couldn't help but to fall asleep. But i got all my work done and my teacher was very understanding :) I hope the 2nd day will be better.

NEW WEBSITE

I made a website for my art. I currently only have one piece posted, but more will be added soon.
anyone who wants to see it, the page is:

elliott.design09.googlepages.com

Are We Having Fun Yet?

Hi guys!
I hope some of you keep checking in from time to time. It's Sunday night and I'm already missing you--even though I won't miss working every day. Still, your faces and fun are what make it all worthwhile. It looks like I will be teaching AP Language (our class) and AP Lit (senior English) next year, so I'll have some of you back again!!! I'm really thrilled about that. YES!!! But, of course, that means I'll be working like a maniac trying to prepare to teach a course that is totally new to me. Oh, but don't I love challenges! (and learning all kinds of new "stuff").
In just over a week, I'm off to Europe, so I'll probably be too swamped to write much this week. However, I will tell you all about it when I return. You'll probably be bored with my adventures over the sea by the time I finish (but maybe not). Anyway, have a great summer, and post something now and then to let me know how you're doing.
Much love,
Mrs. N

Tenth Post! YEA!!!!

Ok, so this is my tenth post. Well since this is my last one, I would like to write about my best teacher this year, and I'm sure you all know who that is...Mrs. Neaves. I would just like to say thank you for being such a good teacher. You know at the beginning of the year I came to school with a good attitude, but I wasn't expecting to learn more than what I had learned over and over from the previous years here at GP. But the crazy thing is I actually learned a lot of things being in your class! I always thought you just gave too much homework at the beginning of the year. Then I started to realize I was actually starting to learn stuff I didn't know before, and it was because you taught very well! Usually stuff doesn't stick in my small brain, but most of the things you taught actually did! I want to say thank you, for just being you and such an awesome teacher, your good at what you do and continue doing what your doing! I hope to see you next year too! I know I'm just another face in a crowd of students, but I hope you don't ever forget me or what I said! Thank You Mrs. Neaves!

Athletic Stuff

I don't understand something. Why is it because you like to dress up or your real, how people say "girlie", they think that you're athletically disabled. Clearly I am a girl, and although I am not involved in any sports or anything at school, people think I don't do that kind of stuff. Well I have a little brother and he is into football and running and anything that involves sweating. I may be a girl but I love to play football with my little brother and sometimes basketball. I like to run occasionally as well. Usually people don't believe me when I tell them I love to play football, I guess they think that because I'm a girl I don't know how to throw or something. I don't know, I just thought thought that was interesting to point out. =)

Purses!

I am a person who can't go anywhere without my purse. The reason for that would be, I need something to carry all my items that I would not like to carry separately. I mean do you really want to walk around with a bunch of things in your pockets, and the stuff falling out of them? No thanks! Id rather carry a big bag around with all my important stuff. For those who don't need to use a purse, congratulations. I sometimes wish I was like that, but once you start using a purse it becomes a habit.

Cellphones!!!

Cellphones are one of the most usefullest things on this earth! I'm pretty sure we all know why too! I mean we practically can't live without a cellphone because we use it so often. Like if you go to the store for your mom and she asks you to get some things for her, when you get there you forget and the phone is always useful to call and ask. I'm just writing random reasons that pop in my head. Cellphones are always useful for like when you don't wear a watch and you don't know what time it is, look at your phone and it tells you! Ok, ok so there's like two reasons and I'm pretty sure there is a whole bunch more, especially useful for when you can't talk on the phone, use texting! Yea, cellphones are awesome!!!! haha =) (I had no idea what else to write about....)

My Balcony

Today in Mrs. Neaves' class she gave the story about the balcony and how we should put people in it who care for and support us no matter what. It really almost made me cry but then Ivan or Jordan said something stupid that made me laugh and broke the mood. I am so glad to say that my balcony would be sold out. I realize how many people I have who support me and care for me and love me, and that I should really try and reach out to those people who don't have that in their life, because I can't imagine how my life would be without the love of my friends and family, especially my mom. She is AMAZING. All my friends love her and I know she will always be there for me and support all my decisions (unless they're stupid). I want to be a mom exactly like her when I have kids. And I really really appreciate my friends, without them I wouldn't be who I am today. I am truly blessed.

And all my teacher's who have put up with me this year and taught me so much, I know they care because I'm still around. This means you, Mrs. Neaves. Thank you for being such a wonderful teacher and I know you really care for us and that's what makes us love you all the more.

Tomorrow is my last day...

I just slept for the past 4 hours, so I'm really hoping that I can find some ZZZ's again before tomorrow morning. I actually woke up at 7pm and thought that it was tomorrow and I was late for school...my family got a good laugh out of that one. Anyway...summer should be really fun...the best one yet anyway [and summer after senior year should blow this one out of the water! I'm already saving my money for it] I've got a few things planned: Get a job, Painting my room in a couple weeks[I'm gonna make a video of it too so If anyone wants to see check this by the end of june] which includes my not sleeping for a few days, going to warped tour, the lake, plano, and I'm sure I'll come up with more later and have a few adventures along the way. It'll be fun.

For senior year I'm planning on making a sort of video diary for the year [ I don't want to call it that because that makes it sound gay so I'm just gonna go with video yearbook for now]. It'll include first day of senior year, all the "senior" events, homecoming, beat south, prom, Christmas, my birthday, baseball season, last day of school, and others...maybe I should include the summer before it also...we shall see. [maybe if it's good enough I'll rent a projector and sell tickets...if that happens I'll get the word out ]

To everyone who I just met this year, "It was cool meetin' you," and to everyone who I've known for a while, "thanks for stickin' with me through everything...putting up with me anyway =] - see everyone next year - I'm out.

ps.

Mrs. Neaves, thanks for being an amazing teacher, I can't thank you enough for the vast amount of progress you've helped me achieve. Just so you know [ and this isn't just me tryin' to earn brownie points] you truly were my favorite teacher this year, and I really hope you move up to AP ENG 4 next year so I can take your class again; it's fun to be challenged. Hope you have a great summer.

Danny Elliott

Rain

Rain. I don’t really like the rain. Mostly because it turns my hair into a fro and when you get all wet in your normal clothes it makes you feel icky. Storms are fun to listen to and stuff but if I’m caught in one they’re not that great. I really hate how it starts raining at the tail end of our school days when my last three classes require that I walk outside. Portable, Chambers, Band Hall. That’s three in a row! Sure, I can walk through the school in between but that doesn’t save me from the monsoon going on once I step out the doors. Maybe I’ll just bring an umbrella. But not even that can protect someone from the sideways blowing rain. Ugh.

Andrea's All ten Blogs

Which Came First?
I would like to discuss the common sense questions which, ironically, seem to have everyone in a stand still baffled state of confusion.

Which came first? The chicken or the egg?
Did the baby come first? Or the human?
Did the mold come first? Or the bread?

It can only be realistic that the CHICKEN came first. Adam and Eve came before the baby, how else would darn Cain have been born?! Therefore, the egg can't produce a chicken, because the chicken has to produce the egg; thus meaning the CHICKEN is the predecessor...and now I could go for some barbecue with all this talk of chicken.

Is the glass half full or half empty?

Darn it! If you wanna know, then pay attention! If someone is drinking it, pouring it out, or in one way or another EMPTYING the contents therein, than it's HALF EMPTY; but, if someone is FILLING the cup, yada yada yada, than it's HALF FULL!

The world is 100 % LAND.

Yes, I said it. Scientists say that the world is 70 % water, if this were true...then what do they think is holding up all that water? More water?! There is land beneath that water, just as there is land beneath puddles in the road and ponds in your yard. This doesn't mean that the land has vanished, it is just being covered/hidden by the water, thus meaning the world is 100 % land with a generous supply of approximately 70 % water to garnish it.


Work-the funniest, most disturbing place on planet Earth
I work at, well, work. Here is just a short synopsis of the oh so many wonderful things we do:


Week 4 on the job: Me and co-worker play in the aisle ways, throwing paper balls and climbing shelves.

Week 6: I am hence known as "ponytail girl" aka: giggles. Courtesy of Satan.

Week 12: I "kindly remind" (he thinks it's "threatening") my co-worker of the dangers he could encounter at work.

Week 18: My co-worker begins the endless onslaught of throwing books at me when I least expect it.

Week 20: Co-worker calls me a fat dancing machine.

Week 23: Co-worker "accidently" runs me over with a cart while I'm sleeping in an aisle way and begins to throw everything within reach, including books and soda cans, at me.

Week 29: I "kindly remind" my co-worker of the dangers of leaving his drink unattended.

Week 43: Another game of catch. I put on a crown, stick a fake spider in my hair, and begin to roll around my work in a rolling chair.

Week 44: My boss sees me glide out of the back room kneeling on a chair, does a double take and calls me crazy. Can't say I blame him.

Week 56: My co-workers lock me in a closet for two hours. I finally realize I have my work's number and contact one of my bosses. She rescues me. They argue that they "blocked", not locked, me in the closet.

Week 57: Someone leaves chicken on a co-worker's desk. We search for the culprit.

Week 58: One of my co-workers puts hand sanitizer on top of another co-worker's doll's heads.

Week 59: We play Rock Band...ALL week.

Week 70: I roll around on the electrical weelchair ("scooter"), honking the horn, advising people we're closed.

Week 77: I sabotage my bosse's (Satan's[he was born on 6.6.66]) desk: counter set to 666, chair wrapped in caution tape, the book "the Devil and His Son" set in his chair. He loves it, I deny all knowledge and then confess, and he compliments me on the touch of the book. Me and my other boss plot to paint the break room pink and hang up smiley's everywhere, just for Satan.

Week 86: My co-workers decide that if I could be any T.V. show, I would be "That Girl". Look it up.

Week 87: I go to ask my boss a question. He asks me what I want, commenting that he knows that smile. He he. :)

Week 92: I'm caught licking cake off of a napkin after eating the cake...I was hungry.

Disclaimer: While all of the events are factual occurences, the dates/weeks are not, they are just guestimated.


Another time around...
Here's another one...I like this one a little more because it deals with the problems of the world...yada yada. This is from the same book.

Disclaimer: I wrote this in the eighth grade, LONG before I ever met my current high school friends that go by Molly and Pamela. Yes, strange coincidence; no, not intentional.

I looked down on the world today. I saw everything. I witnessed the secret you told to your best friend Molly. I saw Cano gossip to Lin about Jack. I pretended to not notice Johnny steal money from his friend to buy pot and then later get into a fight at school. I ignored the people telling lies and stealing from their family. I lied to myself about not seeing the bloodshed and the hurt and anger. I saw Suzy’s kidnappers and the people who rescued her. I saw firefighters die and give their lives for thirty-six people stuck in a warehouse. Pamela organized a campaign for unknown diseases. I watched as the once innocent Lynden shot his best and true friend. I saw little kids steal. I saw Jane give all she had to offer to the poor and needy when she had close to nothing herself. Children went from door to door caroling. Adults gave gifts and exchanged friendly greetings at family reunions. I measured the faith of people sitting in church. I watched as police arrested a man for his attempt to kill thousands of people. I watched as people serving their country went to work every day knowing that they might not see the next sunrise. I saw the corrupt and the kind, the nice and the mean, the true and those pretending, I saw it all. I began to notice things about people that even themselves could never recognize. The pain, hurt, agony, friendship, happiness, those that cared to lend a helping hand. I watched helplessly as the rich stole and the poor gave. I realized how some knew not where they were headed or where they were at. Some seemed to be stuck in the small fragments of time; swaying back and forth between what they know is right and what is wrong. And there I sat, watching it all, and doing nothing.


Yet Again
Quite honestly, I don't like this post or the one before it. I think they're terrible, but if you're that bored: knock yourself out. This is from the same infamous, aforementioned book.

The bell within the big oak clock tower inside of City Square chimed three times, piercing the frozen and silent air. Everything stood still and not even one rustle of a child stirring or a crow flying was heard. There was complete silence and yet there was something disturbing about the silence. No friendship was offered from its frostbitten arms or cold tundra. Thirty degrees and I was lying in the dark with my blanket wrapped around my ankles, sweating profusely. The air in my room was humid and sticky and I had my only window open to the outdoors, welcoming comfort and a slight breeze. I pushed back the blanket that was choking my ankles and fell on the ground. Laying in silence on the cool hardwood floor I used every muscle in my body to slowly heave myself off the floor and bring myself to the window. I placed one hand on the cool metal that framed the window and stuck the other out the window to let the chill of Christmas Eve run across my arm. Chilled and wanting to sit in the cool comfort, I crawled out the window and sat on the sloped roof that was twenty feet above the ground. My entire body became limp and the feeling soothed me almost to the point of falling asleep. The wind rushed across my face; quickly growing in speed and strength. I looked toward the clock tower. Something I did not recognize was rising from the bottom of the tower. The figure became larger as it slowly approached. Darkness and despair clothed him and he had no smile on his face but a look of sadness and hurt. The closer he came the more I felt empty and alone. I began to feel everything he felt only at greater measurements and I felt sorry for him. Everything I could never know or feel began to creep inside of me. Happiness, sadness, surprise, hurt, anger, despair, future, past. I felt it all. It killed me to know what I shouldn’t and yet I thirsted for more of the forbidden knowledge. What pained this unfamiliar person? Why was he sharing it with me? These were things that I would never know.

Random
Yet more ramblings from eighth grade from the same pullings of repertoire...

Clementine always wanted to be a singer and decided she would use every spare college moment in choir. One day, out of the blue, she decided that she did not want to go to the school she had planned on going to anymore but to a different one in a different state. While there, she decided to take band as one of her choice activities since she had never learned how to play an instrument growing up. Of course, she filled up the rest of her time with choir, but why she had chosen band was beyond reason. Clementine worked hard and became very close friends with a girl named Tina, who just happened to be in only one of her classes: band. Over the years Tina and Clementine remained best friends even though they went their separate ways. Tina went along with her music career and Clementine chased her hopeless singing career. No matter how hard she tried, she just couldn’t seem to find the right people to help her continue her dream. One day Tina called her up with hellacious news. She had talked to her manager and told him all about Clementine. After hearing about Clementine, Ted, Tina’s manager, wanted to cut her a deal and bring her into the music industry! Clementine was ecstatic. She would finally be able to live out her dream at last!


Abigail
This is a story I wrote in the eighth grade, pulled from a repertoire of inner thoughts and morals to live by. It's old and I can't promise the grammar, but enjoy. Please notice that this story is a reflection, not of me, but a reflection on life itself. Most people become confused if they don't understand that tidbit right there.

Abigail

The cold air pierced through the silent night like a sharp knife. No one, not a single person, was there to hear it; and never would be. Not one single person. So lonely was the chilly night that no one dared to step outside of their house for fear they would catch a cold. No one, that is, except for one person. I watched her stare up at the night sky, wrapped in her knitted blanket--worn, the colors faded. It was as if she were waiting for something. But what? What could she possibly be waiting for on a frost-bitten night of December at the young age of twenty-three? Her name was Abigail.The stars twinkled in such a beautiful array of fantasies and sparkles. So much hope did they bring that it was surely a sight to be seen. The young woman sat still and dared not to move, and I suspected that she never would, not until whatever she was waiting for came. I imagined it was something marvelous but I did not care to risk my health to the frozen air to ask what. My heart went out to Abigail; she seemed so alone and cold. She had neither gloves nor a coat and yet she kept her place. I could imagine a gentle tear rolling down her cheek. Slowly it rolls until she gives a slight blink of her eye and then it drops off her chin and falls to the ground without a sound loud enough for anyone to notice. Just where was she heading? What good did she think she brought by freezing herself to death? What was she waiting for? So many questions that I yearned to ask her, but I just couldn't. I didn't have the courage, the will. I looked into this young girl's soft face and then into her warm, deep blue eyes. She had both and then some. How could she manage to be so brave and so determined when she knew not where she was headed? Even I myself had no type of courage or understanding. I yearned with all my heart and soul that I should obtain what she had, though I knew her not. How could someone so meaningless and unknown have such a great effect on myself and others around her? Others that noticed. I stared at her for hours on end and not once did she give up. Not once did she leave her place. No words were spoken and she had not seen me and yet I learned so much from her."Abigail! It's time for dinner!" My mother called from the kitchen."Coming!" I replied as I left the frosted-paned window, letting my hand slip away from the pink, satin curtain. On my way to mother I picked up my ragged and worn knitted blanket in which the colors were faded.


I Want Fruit
How many times have you craved fruit? Do you crave fruit at all? Well, I do, and it's leading me to a maniac rage. I dream about fruit, I salivate fruit, I want fruit. Okay, so maybe not THAT extreme, but you get my point right? You see, every Christmas, my family pigs out on an abnormal amount of chocolate, and the following weeks are torture. Coming home from school, the first thing I think about is chocolate. In order to counter-balance this phenomenon, I force myself to eat fruit rather than chocolate or sweets whenever I get a craving, but then I get hooked on fruit, causing an endless cycle of suffering. Why? Because my family is anti-fruit the way that I'm anti-soda, meaning we have no fruit, usually. Now, we do have vegetables from time to time, but for the most part, I'd rather have fruit. Kiwis, Star Fruit, Tangerines, Cherries, and Tomatoes! Yes, tomatoes. My first and only love. I eat them like apples and I eat them quite often. Once, I ate twenty three tomatoes in three days. My parents were convinced I was causing myself bodily damage in an OD fashion, and they weren't able to supply enough tomaotes for our soups and cookouts...so they bought them less often and kept the secrecy of them being purchased. :( . Once, I had my mom go get carrots at twelve thirty in the morning because I was craving them so bad. But I remain an avid fruit lover, true and proud! Except for apples, which I consider a vegetable and a disgrace to the fruit tribe.


Computers. Evil.
Computers should, to put it nicely, die. Petafilers, copyright infringement, identity theft, viruses that eat up your hard drive, vulnerability. And I see half of this on a daily basis at work, especially the aforementioned petafilers. There are sixty year olds where I work that view little six year old's myspaces who put how happy they are to live in Alabama with their frail grandma in apartment sixteen in such and such place. Well, isn't that nice and reassuring?The computer is a waiting disaster threat. How many times have you lost a document or forgot to save a post and had to start all over again? I've made the same mistake with downloading songs. I downloaded all my favorite songs and kept telling myself that I would write it down on paper-just in case. But I kept putting it off and putting it off until one day, there were no songs. Now let's broaden my depression to a larger scale. Has anyone seen "Live Free or Die Hard"? What if the government kept all of the country's information and vital documents in a hard drive with no paper backup or flash drive back up of any kind and one day, it's hacked or suddenly shuts down? What if you did that with your own information and had no way of retrieving it?Let's look on the bright side, computers do make life easier. (Like that cool Dominos Pizza Tracker, so you can yell at the computer because Erick isn't making it fast enough...yeah :)...not that I've done that or anything...) But let's not discredit computers and technology all together. Paper can be just as bad, if not worse. Paper can fly away, get misplaced, burned, stolen, etcetera. So what we really need is an equal balance of both so that we can be prepared-just in case. Similar to having plans and food storages in case of an emergency.

It's All a Conspiracy
Yes, it's a conspiracy. 'What?' you ask? Why, everything! You don't believe me? Take a look around. Rising gas prices? A conspiracy set up by governments, so that they and the oil big wiggs can make a killing off of our need for speed in a vehicle. The fifteen dollars for bags checked in on flights? A conspiracy to get more money, that they may one day take over this greed inoculated planet. The recession we're in? That's a conspiracy too, set up by terrorists within the government so that we may lose our faith in the economy and ultimately lead ourselves to our own destruction! And nine-eleven? Conspiracy! Conspiracy! Conspiracy! All set up by George and his water amphibian friends beneath the earth that are seeking to destroy our nation. He's one of them! Why else would our government murder thousands of U.S. citizens? Marijuana is a conspiracy too, what with the government being greedy and all. You see, us complacent Americans have become too dense, narrow-minded, and brain-washed by SpongeBob to realize these subtle factors in our changing lifestyle.

Disclaimer: In no way do I support or contribute to these random, misguided ramblings. I do, however, support our government with great pride and fervor as we are currently the strongest, most free nation on "God's green Earth" (taken from that radio show my dad always blasts in the car)


Old Drunk Men
Old, drunk men are callow and clueless. Imagine a camel. Imagine a camel riding a unicycle with a "hand" waving a drink and a strangely parched and thirsty aura about him. That is what old, drunk men look and act like.A few days ago, while working at Lone Star Park, I was forced to endure the painfully agonizing and continuous encounter with an overly inebriated, forty year old man, who thought I was the "sweetest thing" and whose goal it was to "pick me up". No matter how many times I told him how young I was and that my MOM would have to hand him the infamous beverage, for I am underage, he repeatedly returned for more beer, trying to get the lucky "goal" of "scoring" my number.

Moral of the story? Don't drink, you just look that much more pathetic.

Omg! My boyfriends amazing... It's our 11 month anniversary today and he forgot so I go a little upset. He knew he did wrong so he got me a little Alaskan Dog Bennie Baby and a Card that read "Know what day it is?...Me neither!" then he wrote J/k and on the side he wrote Sorry I 4 got. I hope this makes up for it. I know it nothin big but still your on my mind. And I wanted to get you sumthin little hope you like it."It was really cute. He made up for his forgetfulness.

TAKS

Today was the first day back from my eventful weekend. It was ok. The best part was finding out that I PASSED ALL MY TAKS!!!! It's really amazing because I've failed my math TAKS since 7th grade and I failed my science this year. But this year I passed. If I'm not mistaken I get 8 extra days off next year and I qualified for the 10 day summer school session so I can take Government this summer. I'm really happy and my whole family is really proud of me. I also finally got to do my schedule for next year. I've pretty much done everything on my list except getting a lot of signatures for my yearbook. I'll do that tomorrow. By the way anyone who wants to tryout for the Jazz Band next year should come talk to Robert Rodriguez or Mr. Camarillo.

Part five of Pathway to Destiny

She runs to her mom and climbs on top of her. Mama, with her last breathe, gently sooths Kozue, and says “Kozue, baby, I want you to be strong, me and papa will always be in your heart, go now and grow my beautiful sun flower.” She moves aside a rug that hides a trap door, and brushes Kozue’s hair from her forehead, kisses her one last time, whispers, “You are my special princess” and passes away.
Kozue lies on top of her mother, holding her tightly, never wanting to let go.
The flaming fire engulfs the house; it’s time to say her final goodbye. Quickly, she lifts the heavy trap door, crawls down until she finally makes it to the other side.

We've almost made it

Sounds like most of you had a good weekend. Can't wait to see Adrian's unibrow tomorrow morning. And Ruben's been reading Neitchze (I'm sure I spelled that wrong but I'm too lazy to look it up right now). I've never read any of his works, so maybe I'll have to have a look this summer. I guess I'll also have to try to follow a bit of the European soccer tournament while I'm in Europe next month. I'm still not convinced that it's really an exciting sport, but perhaps I should go to a game with someone who understands what's going on and get them to explain it to me. I'm sure that if I understood some of the finer points of the game, it wouldn't look so much like endless, pointless running up and down a field. There must be more to it than that...... Sorry I missed the Blue and White game, I was "performing" in a variety show at my church. It was really fun, my group was really silly, and we all had a good time. We did a two parody songs on a couple of church hymns. One was called "Master, the Mother is Raging." Here are the lyrics we made up:
Master, the mother is raging
the laundry is piling high
the kitchen's a compost of garbage
there's homicide in her eye.
we polished the floor tiles with Crisco,
Why did it make her cry?
She drove us to grandma's in Frisco,
She'll come for us in July.
She'd like for us all to obey her will
Please, be still.
Scrubbing the marks from the kitchen wall
removing the mud from the carpeted hall,
It's rained for a week,
The sun doesn't shine,
We're all driving mother clean out of her mind!
She'd like for us to obey her will.
Please be still,
Someday we will.
She'd like for us to obey her will
Please, please be still.

It's a parody on a hymn called "Master, The Tempest is Raging" and we had a lot of fun with it.
See y'all tomorrow!
Mrs. N

Part four of Pathway to Destiny

The guards leave the house. Kozue peeks though the wooden cabinet doors. Slowly, pushing her way out, her feet touches the frigid wooden floor, shock and confuse.
She sees the bodies of her two parents sprawled on the floor, she runs towards them, grasping a hold on them, first her papa, tugging him back and forth, “Get up or I’ll give you tons of kisses” her shrill voice cries.
Bam, bam, the sound of boards hammered against the back and front doors. The guards ignite the house in a blazing fire.
Kozue rises from the floor and moves towards the door, there is no way out.

Blue and White Game

Well the blue and white game was pretty good from a sports fan's perspective. There was good defense on both sides. Both offenses scored and so did the defense. Everyone did a pretty good job overall in the game. Me however, I could have done better but for some reason I didn't really care as much. I did flip a person when I tackled them and i did get kicked in the face. It happened when i made a tackle and someones foot went through my facemask. So those who have me in class will be able to see it right between my eyebrows. Makes it seem like I have a unibrow.

Not Much

Didn't really have much of a weekend. In that I mean i didnt go anywhere fun. I did get to see my brothers and dad since he had a cookout at his house. I rewalize my brothers are getting more and more misbehaved. I did go swimming saturday night in my pool which was pretty cool. I might hop in right now since its pretty hot outside. And I didn't really celebrate memorial day since I have been cleaning and doing laundry all day. I rather be inside in air conditioning anyway.

The rest of my weekend!

My mom and I went shopping! We went to a fancy mall, which has stores like BCBG, Tiffany's, Juicy Couture and stuff like that. It was insane at how expensive those places are, the prices hurt my eyes. Me and my mom had talked about instead of getting a class ring, which I would only wear my senior year, to get a designer piece of jewlery for my senior gift. So we went into the Tiffany's store and found a beautiful silver necklace with the letter "C" on it. We both liked it alot so my mom let me try it on and we decided on that as being my senior gift! Then we walked back up to our car and went on our way to Roundrock where we shopped a little bit more then we were on our way home! We were only gone for a day and a half but we were both more than ready to be home again. I really had a great time spending the day with my mom and we caught up on alot of things, and I'm glad I spent that time with her, it's something I will always remember and appreciate once I get older. We got home late that night and I crashed. The next day I went with my family and Mason to see The chronicles of Narnia...it was awful. Don't waste your life seeing it, you will regret it. Then we all went home and ate fajitas!! It was great being back with Mason and my family, I missed them alot!

STATE

Well we left on Friday afternoon, and it was hot as hades outside. Our choir got lucky and we got to ride in the Greyhound bus WITH airconditioning, sorry band. Me and Kayte watched a movie on my Ipod the whole way to Austin. Once we got there Me, Kayte, Maggie and Karen brought our stuff up to our hotel room, and were in awe. The hotel room was awesome, there was a living room, a small kitchen, a huge bathroom and a bedroom. But we didn't stay in there for too long because we were all hungry and decided to walk to Bennigans. Once we came home from eating we all just hung out in the room and watched all the lame TV shows that were on that night. The next morning we got up ate breakfast and were on our way to competition. Unlike the dreary, rainy, humid day we had last year, this year's weather was sunny and hot hot hot. There was hundreds of kids walking around the UT campus and it was nearly impossible for me to figure out where to go. I was nervous like no other before my solo but I had my mom and some choir people their to give me strength. I sang alright but like always i wasn't loud enough, so I got a two on my solo. I was dissappointed but proud at the same time. I wish I had gotten a one but I know I truely did my best and that's all I can ask for.

State

This past weekend, band, orchestra, and choir went to Austin for solo and ensemble state competition. It was a nice day at UT campus not raining like it was last year and not terribly hot like it was two years ago. The heat wasn’t a big deal until we had to walk in it.

It was nice at first, but then the group of woodwinds wanted to find the brass building. So we begin our journey following Mr. C who gets us lost. Comes to find out we walked in a complete circle! It was time for my ensemble to play, so I headed back. Yeah, yeah playing went great. We don’t know how sf’s are played though.

Nice trip indeed. It had it’s set backs but it was fun and the results were really, really good. Good job choir, orchestra, and band. Yeah!

Solo and Ensemble State.

On Friday a bunch of choir kids got on a bus and headed to Austin. And we had the time of our lives. My room was so much fun, it was Sydney, Nicole, Alexis, and Savannah. We all stayed up entirely too late giving facials and talking about girl things and then we had to get up entirely too early to get ready for solo and ensemble state. Even though we were crazy tired we had a great time!

Jazz Gigs

Last night was amazing. The first gig wasn't so great though, it was boring and super hot out. They said they would feed us too but all they gave us was a water bottle each and a bowl of chips and salsa. So we weren't very pleased. But it was exposure that we needed. After that we went to my house and played then we fed them and let them shoot pool in our game room and swim in our pool. We played Volley Ball and even Mr. C had fun getting beat by my dad in pool. We made some nice memories. I don't think the Jazz Band will ever be the same after these seniors leave. The class of 08 and 09 are the ones who started it all. The 08 seniors will be missed.

Blah..

It's 5:30am and I still can't go to sleep, which is not good because my mom is supposed to be "waking me up" early to help clean. Yes, I'm spending my day off cleaning and finishing projects when I was supposed to be going and doing things with my friends. But I guess I'll have plenty of time to do that when summer comes. This weekend started really good but has sadly gone downhill, I'm feeling sick right now and I really hope it won't last because I don't want to spend my last week of school feeling sick. I found an old story I started last summer on my computer and I think I'm going to work on it more this summer, thanks to Mrs. Neaves I can make it so much better. Well, thats it. Bye!

Work

Just go back from work. Now even though people say I have the easiest job in the world I still hate it. I work at gamestop and even though video games interest me my job does not. Dealing with angry customers and parents who pay no attention to their child's wrong doings does not excite me. That's why I will be giving my two weeks notice the next time I work on Thursday.

Jazz Band At My House!

Today is going to be an amazing day. At first I was a little bumbed because I was gonna miss my mom and dads anniversary party and because my mom was mad at me for stupid stuff but she apologized for snapping at me. And we are good now. Then she got this crazy idea that she wanted the Jazz Band to play at the party. So I called everyone and we are planning to come to my house after our other gig and play a few songs, swim and eat. And of course donations are always accepted. It's going to be so amazing. I've always wanted the Band to play for us at my house and now it's happening. I just hope nothing goes wrong.

Part three of Pathway to Destiny

One of the guards claim the family didn’t pay taxes; therefore, their punishment is death. Papa argues and yells, swearing that he did pay his taxes. The emperor’s guard looks in his little white book and comes across Hibiki’s name and in the space for the amount paid a big red X. Papa continues to argue, but swiftly a hand comes and punches him in the stomach. Down on both knees, Mama pleads to the guard for forgiveness and another chance to pay but it doesn’t help. The guard yanks her black hair and kisses her running tears along her cheek.
“Cheer up gorgeous, you and your husband are going to a much happier place now.” He throws her by the hair with all his strength across the tiny room. While all this was going on, a second guard beats the life out of papa. His brown eyes close and his body, in scarlet blood, lay still.

this weekend so far has been...

great! I finally got to talk to my brother on IM, me and my mom sat there on the computer and IMed him for like 2 hours. But I didn't get to sleep until around 9 in the morning, because of the major time difference, it's the afternoon over there in afganistan. Then when I woke up I went to my friend Joaquin's birthday party which was so much fun. I could've played rock band forever, that game is so awesome. And I got to see a few people I haven't seen in a long time, and I made a few new friends which is always fun. I can't believe this is the last weekend before school is over, it was a good one to go out with. I still have two more days left (because today just started for me). Oh and I was wondering for some reason, you know how they say "party like it's 1999" well now that it's past that are the next generation kids going to say "party like it's 2999"? Just a little something to think about.

an amazing day

Today was...AMAZING! I got to sleep in this morning and it was great. Me and Lacey got up around 11:30 and we ate breakfast. We [my mom,dad,brother,&lacey] were trying to decide what to do, and we came to the conclusion to drive to Oklahoma and go to the Arbuckle wildlife park. We went through it in our car and it was so much fun. The animals would come up to the window to be fed. It was kind of scary because the camels and zebras would basically charge toward the car to eat. We fed: zebras, donkies, yaks, gazelles, giraffes, antelope, long horns, bulls, emus, ostriches, and a lot of other animals. The scariest thing to feed (for me) was the ostrich, its long neck stretched out and its beak was all the way in the car. When the long horn was being fed on Lacey's side I was looking that way then felt something breathing on me and when I turned around there was a horse/bull/ox thing with its head in the car nose to nose with me. When the giraffes stuck their heads down it stuck its super long tongue in the cup and basically sucked out the food; one giraffe even slobbered on my mom. haha. After that we took a scenic route and had a picnic, stopped by an outlet mall in Gainseville, then made our way home. [sorry this is so long but it was just so amazing]

Crystal Skull

Yesterday I went to see the new Indiana Jones movie with my sister. It was actually a pretty good movie than what I had expected it to be. Combined with action, comedy, and family element, it made for an awesome journey. Thanks to Coach Reeves showing us the first movie of the series, I was better prepared for the whole Indiana feel. So now I’m thinking about renting all 3 movies and making it a movie night. Oh the one and only downside to the movie yesterday was the fact that it was two hours long, I believe they could’ve edited a whole lot out. Anyways I had to miss out on the FREE blue and white game. But whatever’s it was all good.

Saturday

First, to answer Ruben's question--I will be adding more posts--maybe not every day since I do have a life, but most days. Today was a lazy sort of day. I should have graded papers, but I didn't. Instead I went shopping with Kara, bought a few things and began thinking about what I'm going to take on our trip to Europe. In just over two weeks, we'll be heading to London, Paris and Rome. It will be wonderful, I'm sure. I'll take lots of pictures (or get Kara to take pictures) and try to figure out how to post them here on the blog so you can all share in the fun. Hope you're all having a great Memorial Day holiday weekend.
Later,
Mrs. N

Longest Day Ever!

So this morning I woke up at about 8:30 and I had a lot of stuff to do before I had to go to work at 10:50. Well I got to work at exactly ten till, and the bad thing is they didn't even have no food out yet that I could "snack" on before I clocked in. Also some Navy guys came in and then it started to get busy after that. I worked from 10:50 till 3:00 p.m and then I took a long break cuz it was running slow. Then when I got back on I worked till 9:20 because then it started to get really busy. So after work I came home, took a long shower and went straight to bed. Oops! I mean I am going straight to bed. lol so night night ;)

Today

Well I woke up this morning and went with my aunt to pick up our rental van, then we [me, aunt Rachel, aunt Cathy, Joseph, Victoria] packed it and drove to Houston to spend the weekend with my mom, dad, and sister. We arrived, went swimming, ate, and I taught my mom how to play guitar hero; she gets better with every song. =]


Anyway, I've been using a video camera a lot lately...I think thats what I want for Christmas [or my brithday they're only 3 days apart] but I don't know It's between that, a camera, or a punching bag...

Today I woke up at about ten and spent the morning with my dad, my baby sister Avrie and my other sister Alexis. He made us breakfast and we all watched The Mummy. Well we did until our T.V. broke it just cut out right in the middle of our movie it was kind of frustrating. So with no T.V. to keep us distracted we all got ready and my mom came to pick us up from her morning of pedicures and manicures and now we are grilling ribs and chicken and swimming at my grandmas. It's quite nice really, my cousins are down from their home in Bonham,TX and we are having a good time while listening to Michael Jacksons Greatest Hits. Later we are going to my cousins Graduation Party apparently the school he goes to in Dallas is already graduating their seniors.

Blue and White Game

So the blue and white game was petty interesting. It was the first official aperance of the cheerleaders I think it went pretty swell. I missed the band and the drill team though and we had to cheer on the visitor side because of the construction. Blue team won but it was a pretty good game. After the game our couch told us to go to the huddle with the football players, it was strange at first but it was a wonderful experience; it was a good way to start the new season. One of the coaches made us cry. I realized that I only have one more season of football left and I’m really going to miss it so I say we make this season the best one yet.

Final 10th Post

So this is my final post, which will give me ten total posts. I really enjoyed this program that we did, and I highly recommend it for next year. I would also recommend the video for next year; it was a fun and easy grade. Anyway I have really enjoyed this year due to me making, meeting, and strengthening my bonds with others such as: Heather Michelle Mayfield, Savannah Sirkel, Victoria Curriabias, and so many more. I hope that my senior year will be as fun and good as my junior year. Oh and I would like to thank Heather for helping me with my physics homework and Danny for editing the English video.

Austin Castleberry

Braces.

Well I really don't know what to talk about so I will talk about how I got braces last year in May, right before school was out. The Dentist told me that I was going to get them off in a year, to me that seemed like a long time. Well a year goes by, and look at me I still have to wear braces! Man I was pretty mad when they told me, I mean my teeth weren't that that that bad, but you know I wanted to have pretty teeth so I got them. Okay I can understand why I still have to keep them on, because my teeth are clearly not that straight as they should be in a years time. But how are they going to get straight if they don't even tighten my braces when I go monthly, lately for the past recent 4 months that is. All they do is change the color! I told my boss about my brace situation, and he said that he thinks they are just trying to make money off of me wearing the braces longer, because supposibly the longer I wear them the more money they get. Well I don't know what the deal is, but I can't wait to get them off! I get tired off getting those stinkin cuts inside my mouth. =(

Blue vs. White

The game was ok. It wasn't Spectacular. Blue team one as usual, but it was nice getting to go out and just chill. My parents shelter me a whole lot so I don't get to hang out much but when I do it's usually pretty amazing. After the game I talked my parents into letting me go for ice cream afterwards so we went to Marble slab. I 'm pretty sleepy so I think I'll go to bed early tonight so I can get up early and get some sun on my white legs :) Goodnight all...

More funny facts!

160 cars can drive side by side on the Monumental Axis in Brazil, the world''s widest road. Now whats the purpose of having a road so wide when no one is going to drive on it. Also 35% of the people using personal ads for dating are already married. I admit i have done that once or twice on myspace. (just kidding). 80% of 10 year old girls in the U.S. go on a diet. Thats just stupid, once she has 7 kids she is not going to care about her figure anymore. 90 percent of women who walk into a department store immediately turn to the right. That is so true! Also 97% of all paper money in the US contains traces of cocaine. So for all you junkies out there just lick your dollars to see if there is still some left. Buttermilk does not contain any butter. So then why call it buttermilk? No word in the the English dictionary rhymes with "MONTH". So mrs. neaves try to find a word that does!

Funny facts

I am looking at interesting funny facts and would like to share a few. Like in Cleveland, Ohio it is illegal to catch mice without a hunting license. Also tablecloths were originally meant to be served as towels with which dinner guests could wipe their hands and faces after eating.Tipping at a restaurant in Iceland is considered an insult. I think i'd rather keep my tip. Also some guy named Ernest Vincent Wright wrote a book with over 50,000 words, none of which containing the letter "E". Now i say that is just stupid to waste your time to write some book not containing a certain letter.Most lipstick is partailly made of fish scales. I feel bad for those who are alergic to fish. Did You Know, Coca-Cola was originally green.Did You Know, Intelligent people have more zinc and copper in their hair. I dont know how to check that out on my hair. Also 2,500 newborn babies will be dropped in the next month. I will hate to be that baby!

Part two of Pathway to Destiny

Papa comes home and Kozue showers him with hugs and kisses. He picks her up and attacks her with millions of tickles.
“That’s enough you two, time for supper.”
“O.K. Mama,” laughs the little girl.
Once supper was over, Kozue was placed in bed. Her mama was in the next room cleaning and her father was helping. Suddenly, there was a vicious knock at the door. “Who is visiting during sundown?” questions Mama. Kozue awakes and runs next to her frighten mother, grabbing the side of her tattered dress. Papa cautiously opens the door, only to be stomped by the police with torches in hands, their black horses waiting outside. Mama quickly pushes Kozue into the antique oak wood cabinet, making sure she is safe and out of danger.
“Kozue stay in here and don’t make a sound.”

Oh my goodness i have a lot of stuff to do before school is out. I haven't even done my schedule for next year. when a counselor came to my English class she didn't have tome for me and said she would come back. but she never did. and the day they called everyone down who was left I was absent. I also need to register for summer school so I can take government and I really need to get a lot of signatures in my yearbook still. And of course passing all my classes. SO MUCH TO DO!!

Part Seven RST

Part Seven

Usually he had always walked right by it never really giving it much though but now with it being the only smart place to wait out the pounding storm it was both a shelter and a horror. It cast long shadows in every direction when the lightning rippled ravenously through the dark clouds behind and around it. The shadows defined the old building’s feature’s giving a forbidding definition of its roofs tower and many windows. It was a foreboding place to pass by and he had over heard rumors about it when he had first moved here about various things which he hoped were just rumors and nothing move as he stopped and pushed on the towering gate to the yard around it. Slowly it silently floated inward on its rusted hinges causing a shiver to creep up his spine which he blamed on the cold rain to calm his nerves as he quickly made his way up the path, eager to escape the tormenting weather.

Oh my.

This week has been CRAZY. I feel like I've been pulled left and right all week long but I honestly think I have managed to get everything done. Today we were supposed to have Senior Directed Shows in the black box but we had to cancel it and move it to Tuesday which, I must say, I wasn't depressed to hear about. I've had so many projects this week, three in one class! But I must say, my favorite project to work on was definitely Mrs. Neaves'. Kelli, Chelsea, and I had so much fun making our video, it's really crazy but I hope the whole class enjoys it. On top of all this crazyness I leave for Austin tomorrow at 1pm for Choir Solo and Ensemble State, I know we are going to have a good time and I'm really excited about the trip. I really need to finish packing!

So Much To Do, So Little Time

Wow, we have so many projects to do this week! I can't even keep up with them all, plus the reviews for the semester exams and all that junk. Its really tiring, but not tiring enough to help me sleep apparently because I haven't had a straight 7 hour sleep all week. I really think that I would love doing the satire video if it was around a time when we actually had time to think instead of doing so many projects. I have a feeling our video isn't going to be so good, seeing as we are meeting in the morning to do it (talk about last minute!). I can't wait to see everyone else's though. I'll be glad for the three day weekend, it will give me a chance to catch up on these projects. I liked the guest speakers today, I learned a lot. I need to start preparing next year when I'm a junior so I'm not caught off guard.

Projects

I cannot believe how many projects we have had this past week. We had the video for Ms. Neaves class and then we had not one but two projects in Ms. Murdock or Maniskys’ class, this week. One of them being a brochure for either a college or any science thing we want to do it on, and of course I did that on the University of Texas at Austin, Texas. And the other one was our toothpick bridge, which I got dumped on me at the last minute by my group, but it was ok because I got it done.

Austin Castleberry

Life

I've only been alive for 17 years, but it seems to me that I have learned more since 2008 started then I have my entire, short life. I was so excited about 2008. It brought me this feeling that all the gunk of 2007 was gone and I could make this year right. My whole family was excited about it actually. Then we were hit with my dad's death and I couldn't quite understand. But God's plans aren't are plans. For some reason God wanted him with him and not with us. Right after he died, we went into his hospital room to see him. Everyone was crying and of course I broke down, but this peace over came me. I was suddenly okay and I have been ever since, which is a huge blessing. Right after that it seemed like everything was breaking down or stopped working. When it rains it pours they say. But even through the storm I was able to be strong, hold myself together, and walk away from it all a completely different person. I have learned so much about myself. That's what life is all about. You always grow and discover something about yourself. It is a never ending process. You never stop learning.

Speakers on Thursday

I hope you all enjoyed the speakers in class today and that you learned some things that will be helpful. I really want to encourage you to aim high--try for the dream schools and see what happens. Colleges really are looking for great kids like you guys, so study hard, get good grades, do well on the SAT and ACT and set some high goals for yourself. You can do it! I am willing to proofread essays, write recommendation letters, whatever I can to help you achieve the goals you have for yourselves.

I'm looking forward to watching your films tomorrow. Sorry about giving a project when everyone else was doing the same thing. I was hoping that this would be something light and fun (and still a learning experience) after all the AP practice we've been doing. So, if you think I shouldn't do this after the AP test next year, please let me know. Any suggestions you have (serious, thoughtful ones anyway) on how to improve the class are greatly appreciated.

Love you guys!
Mrs. N

Video #2

[at least...I think I posted something else about our video]

So our Satire Video is due tomorrow I think it will be fun watching what everyone came up with.
For Austin and me, well, we have been expriencing technical difficulties all week, we've had to record in 3 different sessions, change our story, try and work through some bad acting, and finally
I'm in th editing process and the sound keeps getting messed up. So I'm just really hoping that this last DVD burn turns out with everything ok. If not ya'll are in store for something like a foreign film - the mouth and body moves, then you wait for 5 seconds to hear the sounds come out of their mouths...

On another note, I get to go on a field trip tomorrow! AP Econ is going to the "bureau of Printing and Engraving" [the place in fort worth where they make money] so I'm out of class all day after 1st!
=]


5 MOre Days of sChool!

what to do for the summer?

There are so many plans people have for the summer, and so much they actually do. I have four options and dont know which one to choose. I could either stay here and try to get a job at some store or a warehouse with a friend of mine. Go to Mexico and stay for two weeks in Colima. And i would love to go to Mexico because where im from there is a beach. And i just love it there. In Mexico you can walk around the city late at night without worry of being shot ( depending on where you are in Mexico) . Also at night everyone is on the streets. Its not like over here in the United States when you seldom see people walking late at night, and if you do its always troublmakers. My other option is to go to North Carolina and work at a warehouse with my cousin. I would love to go because it will be a warehouse i will be working in and i have never been in North Carolina before. My other option is to go live with my dad in Cactus, Tx which is about an hour north of Amarillo. The problem will be that the town only has around 800 people living in it, and my dad will most likely do something stupid. But the positive side will be that since the town is so small i could drive his truck around town. I would be working with my dad in a slaughter house, is one of many slaughter houses from some company called Swift.

Even though the school year is coming to an end, the workload is still crazy but not stressful. My satire film for Ms. Neaves is due tomorrow, a bridge for Ms. Murdock, a six weeks test for Spanish, a six weeks test for carrier connections, and probably some test in pre-cal. In band we are preparing for graduation, the piece we are playing is pretty amazing. It’s entitled pirates of the Caribbean. It’s hard to say and admit we are going to be seniors already. As our journey of high school is coming to an end, we will be preparing for our journey of adult hood and the rest of our lives. I will never forget my memories in high school thank you everyone!
Love Angel

why do people sometimes take religion to the extreme?

I dont write this to offend anyone but honestly why do some people take religion to the extreme? I am a catholic and am a proud one but you dont see me going around telling everyone the word of the Lord. I dont go around to peoples houses telling them if they believe or not. And why do people always say "it says in the bible" when the bible could have been changed long time ago. How can can you tell you were not alive then? People decide who they are and they decide what they should do not a book that was written a long time ago. And like i said i do believe in the Lord but i honestly dont believe the bible is 100%. For example can you read the bible and honestly believe everything in it is true? Yes there were miracles, and stories that did occur but i dont think that everything it says is true. I believe that there are more than just one Gods and we should accept them fairly. I cannot say that God is the only creator and i can only believe or worship Him. I cannot go to a Hindu and tell him he is all wrong, I cant tell the Native Americans that they worship something that does not exist? No because they will bring the same question to me, how do you know that God exists? Like i said i believe God put us here for a reason but i dont believe people should make such a big deal about religion.

Jazz Band

Mr. C started the Jazz Band up last year before it was even made a class. We would all come in four days a week for an hour and a half after school and learn Jazz. The music was amazing and I fell in love immediately. Although it was tough staying on our own time we still all did it. this year we got it approved for a class but we didn't get put in the budget so we are using our won equipment that is in need of desperate replacing. But still we keep our heads held high and do what we love. This year a lot of people have been hearing us and are wanting us to do numerous gigs. So we have been getting a lot of "wanted" attention. If anyone needs a jazz band to play at a party or something let us know. We take all donations and WILL PLAY FOR FOOD!

Blue and White Game

Well it's that time of year where football teams everywhere split up the teams and have a little intersquad scrimmage. Grand Prairie happens to be tommorrow in the Gopher Bowl at seven o' clock. This year I happen to be on the white team. Hope people come out to show some support I'll be wearing the number thirty three as always. I won't be making any prdictions about this year's game I just hope I do my best and make as many big plays as possible. Even if I'm only playing linebacker on defense.

Why Now?

Why at the end of the year do teachers decide to assign projects as major grades? Not that they're hard or anything, it's just that five projects at once is pretty hard to manage especially when u have extra stuff your in like shattered dreams and the blue and white game. Just doesn't make sense that they all do it at the same time with the same due dates. But o well I hope I get them all done.

Story time... Part one of Pathway to Destiny

China, during the Ying dynasty, was a cold and horrible place. Poverty was everywhere. Farming and fishing were the only means of life. The empire was corrupt and brutal.
One was born with a special gift. One who shall suffer and go through hardship. This person would put an end to this corrupt empire.
“Mama, Mama,” cried the young five-year old girl.
“What is it Kozue?”
“The kids at school are always teasing me. They call me names and throw dirt on me. I don’t understand why. Why mama? Why me?”
Her mom embraces her closely, wipes the streaming crystal tears from her face and whispers in her ears, “Since the day you were born you’ve always been special. No one can compare to you. You are my special little princess,” she gently wipes Kozue tears with her hand and re-braids her long beautiful black hair.

English Video

Man our video is amazing! I loved working on it. I can't wait to show it in class tomorrow! I hope everyone thinks it's as funny as my friends do. Although some people probably won't get the craziness in it. It started out with a staged fight in the 500 hall with a bunch of extras and Mr. Whitely intervening, then it got way way better. My group just had a bunch of random crazy ideas that made it perfect in our eyes. Malina, Melissa and I are actually going to start making a series of random videos about everything. I haven't really decided what I want to do in my life maybe I'll do something in filming. I really enjoy it.

Guest Speakers

Today during Ms. Neaves class we had guest speakers talk about college. Even though I dont want to admit it my time in high school is coming to an end and college is not far down the road. I learned a lot from the speakers especially that SAT and ACT are the most important things if you want to get a scholarship. I'm scheduled to take the SAT June 6th and hopefully I score well enough so that I dont have to take it again but the chances of that are not high since i really havent been studying. Anyways cant wait for tommorrow know that it is the beginning of my last weekend as a Junior.

Part Six

Part Six [Beth]

As he ran, he looked around wildly in search of a temporary shelter that he might be able to take refuge under until the storm calmed itself. But he found no such sanctuary for there were nothing but oak trees and he knew better than to huddle under one of them knowing that he may not live to regret doing so. And being out in the country didn’t help things either for there were very few houses though…
Then he saw it. It rose up on a hill surrounded by giant ominous dark trees which held very few remaining leaves with an old stone path way winding through them up from the large rusting front gate to the wide tall double door entry. He had pasted this mansion of a medieval castle many times before but never had he looked at it as he did now.

home

Well I stayed after school today so me, Liz, Kristina, & Rafael could finish our video for your class. I hope it comes out ok, I have to put all the scenes together here soon b/c it's all out of order. I'll take care of that after my chinese food gets here! My friend Jackie came over to my house so she's going to stay for dinner. I cannot wait for this weekend. Tomorrow (friday) me and Danny are going to go to his house and order pizza and watch P.S. I Love You. Later that evening my best friend Lacey is coming down from Plano and we might go watch the blue and white game. She's supposed to stay the whole weekend so that's exciting b/c I never get to see her that often. I'm sure we'll find something interesting to do, maybe the movies or sixflags, who knows? I'm so ready for school to be out, it will deffinately be a weight lifted from my shoulders.

Catrina <3

Random Story Thing Part 5

Part Five [Beth]

That one was soon quickly followed by another and another and another.
“This is just prefect!” he mumbled to himself as he realized how far he still was from his house. As he began to run down the sidewalk, brilliant bright lightning filled the evening and ripped across the sky accompanied by a loud crack of thunder that tor through the silence of the afternoon like the many sharp claws of an enraged farm cat across the face of the one who made it so followed by the victim’s howling screams. Before he knew it the few droplets had turned into a bombardment upon him their cold pang stinging and nipping at his unprotected head and arms.

We Finished Our Movie!

We just finished our movie. It came out so great! Denise is just doing Lita's hair and we are taking a final picture of all of us in our costumes! I can't wait to show it in class. Tomorrow is finally Friday! Then a three day weekend. A much needed three day weekend. Juana and I are going to Six Flags on Monday. I love that place. I'm super excited about this whole next week. i have so much planned...

I never saw another butterfly

I went to go see “I never saw another butterfly” the story line is quite melancholy its about a Jew girl that loses her family. She meets a boy and loses him too the only thing that would bring her joy was the thought of butterflies. The author’s purpose was to show us that when something is bad we can still bring joy to our life. The play also brought another important idea “just because your scared doesn’t mean you’re a coward.” This line is important because sometimes it’s ok to be scared even if other don’t think so.

5 Months

So for tonight me and my amazing girlfriend went and ate at Candlelight Inn for our five month anniversary. It was amazing. We sat their in the candle of this nice hole in the wall restaurant just talking about the past five months and we have had such a great time and how much we cared about the other one. She is by far the one person who I happen to have the most connections with even though we have nothing in common. But that is ok because we some how make it work, or rather she some how puts up with my grumpy butt and we keep on treading.

Austin Castleberry

The Play...again

We did I Never Saw Another Butterfly tonight. It went better then we all thought it would. Yes, yes. Sure there were only about ten people there but oh well. We showed Ms. B that slacking in drama class and being apathetic towards learning lines isn’t all that bad. We got the job done, and well if I might add. Can’t wait for our cast party at Chuck E’ Cheese!

Other then that, I’ve got an AP test tomorrow. US History. BORING! I don’t care much about it so I’m staying up extra late to edit the satire video for Mrs. Neaves class. Yes. Staying up late. Hope my alarm wakes me up.

summer time

i am so ready for summer that i can hardly stand it. I'm ready for rest and relaxation. no stress and tons of fun. i look forward to visiting colleges and planning my future. I've waited for what seems like centuries waiting to be a senior and its finally our year. everything this summer holds can only be described as tremendously promising. i cant wait for cheer camp i think that might be one of the greatest experiences I'll have over the summer. every year i wast the senior cheerleaders stand up for recognition on the last day. i always cry thinking and imagining what it must feel like to know this is your last camp experience as a high school cheerleader, however this year I'll know first hand. i know that i will cry that i do not doubt at all. none the less I'm way excited.

Keeping in Touch and Fearing Death

Ok I know we only have to write 10 of these blogs, and this is my 5th so I'm halfway there. But I think I might continue writing on here even after my 10 blogs I need for the extra credit. Of course, I won't if no one else does because that wouldn't be very much fun. This seems like a good way to get out your feelings or just sum up the events of the day, I like it. It's kind of a way to keep in touch over the summer and to know that you aren't alone in your feelings of things. Like the thing about fearing death, I know I'm scared of death. I fear it so much because I'm scared I will die before I have really lived, I want to grow up, have kids, have grand kids and watch them grow. So yes, I am scared of dying and not experiencing all of that. I know where I'm going when I die but there is so much to do HERE before I go THERE. Because that is eternity, and this life we have is short. Live it to the fullest, don't take anything for granted.

aww man

So this is my fourth post, however, I think Mrs. Neaves didn't read my first ones because i posted them on a different blog that I made up because I didn't know how to do it! Man... oh well, I'll have to re due them or maybe Mrs. Neaves loves me enough to go find them, even though i don't even know how so... oops. Anyways, I just finished my project for world history and boy am i glad that i did! takes a little bit of the load off my shoulders. Our satire movie is coming out so good. I'm very excited about it. We just need the finishing touches tomorrow and then show time on Friday. I'm a little scared, I'm so ridiculously crazyy in the whole movie! not at all the way i would act in public! I'm sure it'll be fine though, it's all worth the good grade.

Bath tubs?!?!

At first I didn’t understand the Japanese bath at all. Here in the states most people prefer to take a shower to remove the grim of the day. But the Japanese bath is different. It’s not for cleaning like our baths. It’s more for relaxation and get this . . .you’re actually clean before you get into the bath water. Now, that’s totally different from how we take baths. It makes baths more appealing. Instead of sitting in your own dirty water as we do here, you’re sitting in nice, hot, relaxing, clean water. that sure sounds quite nice right about now.

Random info from Kat =^.^=

POWDERPUFF GAME!!!

Just to inform all of you...the JUNIORS whooped the Seniors today! The score was like 35-0, it was awesome! I'm probably going to be all red tomorrow because it was exteremly sunny. Ya'll all should have come you would have been proud. Lauren was going Beast Mode on everyone out there, both teams started getting kind of rough with eachother by the middle though and people started getting angry at eachother. But we all got out of that little phase by the end of the game and were having alot of fun...I kind of want to try out for the football team now. SIKE! But it really was alot of fun, I got to play safety most of the game I'm really glad we all actually got equal play. I learned alot more about football too, so I can enjoy it even more than I already did when I watch! I havn't run like that since track season though so my feet are all tired, that's not good.

FEAR

[the following is my opinion and is not meant to offend]
Dictionary.com defines "Fear" as a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid. So then I think it is ignorant, naive, or maybe just rather misleading to say that you don't fear death. Sure you can say that death is the first step into a better place, or that It will end up happening no matter what, and you have lived a good life [just to clarify, I used these examples b/c these are the usual reasons for "not fearing death," not b/c thats what other people had written]; however, for some people it's not necessarily about where they're going after they pass on, but what they are leaving behind. Can you honestly say that you would not miss your life, your friends, your family? Losing that connection alone is enough to fear, and some may say that you will be reunited with them again one day...but whether or not they were true believers of "the faith" is between them and God. For those who say that "what happens happens"...if you died tomorrow, would you not feel robbed and wonder why this happened to you. Also, there are people who are not necessarily afraid of death, but the process of dying.Truthfully, can you say that you are not frightened by th thought of your body systems shutting down, or something like in shattered dreams?

I fear death, I fear loss, I fear suffering...in every form, and every way...I cherish every moment, every breath because of it.

[sorry if I was ranting]

"Funerals"

Well, I actually got through the "funerals" today pretty well. I think it was in part because I sitting in the very back near some people who weren't really paying attention, and their noise kept me from becoming as involved as I might have been. So, perhaps their bad manners were a blessing in disguise for my emotional state. In any case, we made it through and all had a lot to think about. Please know though, that I (and many other teachers) really do care about you guys. We want the best for you and great happiness in your lives. Being a teenager is tough, and sometimes it really bites, but you are greatly loved. I was worried when I first started teaching (only 6 years ago, actually) that I would be too old, or I wouldn't like the kids, or you guys wouldn't like me. But it has all gone really well. We do have a pretty tough crowd at our school, but there are many, many wonderful students--people I am honored and blessed to know and work with. I honestly feel that the Lord has placed me at GPHS to know and love you guys. And I feel that my first job is to care for you, then to teach you skills that will be of benefit to you for the rest of your life. If you can learn to love learning, you have something that will bless your entire life. Every day I learn new things and it's always exciting and challenging and fun. Every day you guys teach me something new or funny or thought-provoking. I absolutely loved Danny's ending line on his timed writing about the excerpt from "The Onion." Remember that it stated (somewhere near the end) something like "why should I go to a real doctor when I can get information from an intelligent-looking guy in a lab coat"? Well, Danny ended his essay with something along the lines of "I know all this because I am an intelligent-looking high school kid in jeans and a T-shirt." It was a clever play on the article; I couldn't help but laugh, and he got a 9 on the essay(the rest of it was quite good, but the laugh definitely improved the grade). Thanks for the smiles (from all of you). I know that I have the best job in the world!
Later,
Mrs. N

Peace Keeper

As I try to keep the baseball team from spiraling into complete and utter chaos I find myself forming bonds and creating barriers with people who either hate each other or are best friends. And as time goes on I barely keep the peace with my “friends”, they seem to become bitter towards me and not anyone else, especially the people who are fighting each other. I just don’t know if I’m doing any good. So I just think that if I stepped back and just let things play out, would there be any difference in the current attitudes towards their teammates?

Austin Castleberry

In Re to: Why do people fear death? #3

continued...
Okay so I showed how there is a heaven and hell, and I kinda just bounced to that after I was explaining about why I dont fear death. I must say that the decisions we make in life really do effect us later on. So how I got to showing how there is a heaven and hell, I went to that because some people don't believe that there is. But I am saved and knowing that, I will go to heaven, that is why I do not fear death. I truly believe that God has a destiny for each and everyone of us. If you live for him he will reward you in the end, which is eternal life(in heaven). =D

Bach, Beethoven, Mozart, and Chopin

I've been miserably sick the past two days and I don't even know how I got that way. My mom wouldn't let me go to school today which actually kind of made me angry. Now I have no chance of being exempt which makes me quite sad. But it made me realize something, got me thinking which sometimes isn't a good thing. When I do deep thinking, it weighs me down. Strange. But I realized how much my mom loves me. She took two days off of work to take care of me and bought me a lot of Dr. Pepper and ice cream, made me food, took me to the doctor, and allowed me to sleep for hours while she worked outside in the backyard all day. No matter what, your parents are always there for you. I think we need to be reminded of that every once in awhile.

So now I lay listening to Bach, Beethoven, Mozart, and Chopin, my mind twisted with a billion thoughts all at the same time. You learn something new all the time. Most of the time it's at your lowest, weakest, sickest times. I wonder why that is.

In Re to: Why do people fear death? #2

continued...
But you choose where you will go when you die. Some people say well how do you know there is a heaven and hell, well my friends, in the bible it shows that that there is, and the bible is the word of God =) in:
Revelations 20:15 ; If anyone's name was not found written in the book of life, he was thrown into the lake of fire.
(lake of fire=hell)
Mark 9:43 ; If your hand causes you to sin, cut it off. It is better for you to enter life maimed than with two hands to go into hell, where the fire never goes out.
Those verses right there pretty much show, that yes my friends there is a hell...and if theres a hell there has to be a heaven! =) Thats the good part.
Matthew 5:12 ; Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.
I only used those verses because it shows how there is a heaven and hell, unfortunatly I am not the best organized writter in the word. lol But hey I am just trying to show that there is a heaven and hell and that is why I think it is important that you know that is why I believe there is.

In Re to: Why do people fear death? #1

I was reading over some of the blogs posted and I came over one that grasped my attention. The one about why do people fear death? In my personal opinion I can honestly say that I do not fear death, and no its not because I know that eventually we will all die one day. Its because I know that if I were to die, that I would go to heaven. Now you may ask yourself, how does she know that? Well I believe that you have to accept Jesus into your heart as your personal Lord and Savior. I have done that. Im not trying to be religious or anything, because I am anything but, I am just a true devoted Christian trying to live the best I can for God. I know I am far from perfect and we all make mistakes, but that is why I pray, read my bible, and go to church too. The reason some people fear death is because they are unsure of where they will go when they die. I believe that here is a heaven and there is a hell.
continued on next blog....=>

Shattered Dreams

The past two days have been very emotional for a lot of people, me being one of them. I personally have never had any close family or friends killed in a drunk driving accident, or a major car crash in general. When the day started, the first heart beat and flat line really caught my attention. People told me about kids being taken out of their class and i'm glad I didnt have any because I probably would have started getting all choked up then. The video we saw in chambers was like something you'd see on lifetime. When I got outside and saw the whole scene set up I got a knot in my stomach the size of a basketball. I tried my best to stay cool and remember it wasnt real; but when they covered up ahmon and ricky and arnie got into it I just couldnt hold back. I tried really hard not to make it obvious that I was crying but of course Danny noticed. It hit me really hard when they said Taylor passed away. It really made me think what if this wasnt just "shattered dreams" what if it was really happening. I really hope this makes people think twice about drinking and driving, because I know it made a huge impact on my out look on the whole situation.

Catrina Wyrick<3

BBQ

So I went to Spring Creek BBQ today, which is very rare because I usually don’t eat BBQ, but this morning I really wanted it so my mom agreed. Anyways, we went and I got a Strawberry Crush and a chop beef sandwich, some Mac n’ Cheese on the side and some real good banana pudding that comes in a fancy glass. How nice. One thing I like about Spring Creek is their hot, fresh bread. Not just hot bread or fresh bread but hot, fresh bread. So good. They don’t beat Golden Corrals dinner rolls and honey spread, but they’re still just as good. Way to go Spring Creek!

The only other BBQ type of place I’ll go to is Outlaws. Wonderful place but their BBQ can’t live up to that of Spring Creeks. Sure they’ve got chop beef sandwiches or sliced turkey sammies but they can’t beat Spring Creek’s BBQ and BBQ sauce which is oh so mouth watering. One thing Outlaws does better is their burgers. They’re not fake soy burgers like McDonalds or Wendy’s. They’re good beefy burgers cooked just right each time.

So next Sunday after church when I’m craving some good eatin I’m stuck between Spring Creek’s amazing chop beef sandwich and banana pudding or Outlaws grilled burgers and chocolate cake. Who knows?

Video

Well, Austin and I just finished making our video for class about 30 minutes ago...we ran into a few bumps. First we had to figure out exactly what we were gonna do; then there was the matter of actually recording - the problem was that we couldn't find a blank DVD-R for my camcorder. So we went to the store and bought new ones [when we got back to my house we found those that were missing...waste of my $15!] . Recording didn't exactly go "smoothly," but hopefully with my new video editing software I can make it work. I really hope it goes over well, but we'll see on Friday.

Part Four of Random Story Thing

Part Four [Beth]

Yet he was alright with it. He saw no need to stretch himself thin trying to do all of that kind of stuff besides he was satisfied with who he was though sometimes it was a drag having to deal with all the drama everyone else seemed to give him about his lack of involvement. Even his parents thought it was unhealthy for a junior boy in high school to be so too himself but he didn’t care except for when it got him into trouble like today.
Suddenly a large drop of water hit him on his head and he looked up just in time to ketch another between his eye which ran down his face till it hit the cold sidewalk.
“Oh Great,” he said under his breath as he watched yet another drop fall to the Earth in front of him.

So today I took the accuplacer it was a breeze there was nothing stressful about it. The bad thing about it was that I had to miss shattered dreams funeral. Yesterdays accident with everyone getting hurt was sad,but not to the point that I was tearing up does that make me an evil cold hearted person. A lot of people said they didn't feel anything because it wasn't anybody they knew and they knew it wasn't real, so it actually didn't change peoples opinon of drinking I think. I don't know but I do know I'm ready for school to be over finally. I need to sleep.

Movies

Some friends and I are heading to the parks mall today to watch the very popular anime show called Death Note. It’s only on the big screens for two nights so we made sure that we ordered our tickets as soon as possible. The main plot of this show is about a young bright student named Light, who is bored with life and discovers a mysterious notebook that claims that whose name you write in it will die of “natural” causes and such. Soon a detective named L becomes very suspicious of these deaths and begins investigating. The show is based on wits and kind of a cat and mouse game of who will win.

Shattered Dreams

Not a great morning for your old teacher. First they take Adrian out of first period after reading his obituary. I held myself together for that one, but the actual "accident" out in front of school was too much. I felt like an idiot, but there I stood, crying, as Ahmon and Taylor died and Katie was terribly hurt. Vanessa, Jordan, Maria and Mrs. Fox looked like they were falling apart, and I wasn't doing much better--and I wasn't even in the presentation! I think today I'll hide out in the back of the auditorium during the "funerals" and leave if it gets to be too much. I've decided that I definitely need to leave this earth before you guys. I don't want to attend ANY of your funerals. So be safe out there!
I love you,
Mrs. N

Today

I woke up this morning sick as a dog. I don't know how I got sick but it hit me like a bus. I didn't want to miss anymore school so I could have a chance of being exempt but after the Shattered Dreams thing I had to go home. Shattered Dreams was really sad. I know that it wasn't real but because the people involved in the "crash" were my friends it was hard to watch. I can't even imagine having to go through that in "real life". When I got home I watched the patriot which is an amazing movie and slept for about 5 hours. I think I'm worn out and worn down. I'm ready for summer. I need rest. The end of school is way too stressful.

Shattered Dreams.

Today was Shattered Dreams and it really had a big impact on how I see things. Several of my best friends were involved, part of the "living dead" and after school when I went outside and saw all of them lined up outside it was really hard. Even imagining my friends not being there is awful. In first period they came and got Adrian, they read his obituary and it was so sad. I didn't get to see the video or the crash but just seeing the "living dead" walk around and reading my friends obituaries was enough for me. Today was hard but it taugh a very important lesson.

Fortune cookies can be so wise.

I went out to dinner at China City on Friday with my mom and a friend of mines to celebrate a family friend of ours who would be graduating soon. I ordered the lunch special which was chicken and fried rice with my meal, and they gave me a egg roll in addition to lots of lo mein.
At the end of my meal they gave me a fortune cookie. I open it and read the note inside; it read “you would be wise not to put to much trust in your friends at this time.” I thought for a while about that fortune cookie message as I told my friend good-bye after dinner.
Sometime you might need to believe those fortune cookies. My fortune cookie also had these winning lotto numbers. 05-08-09-15-24-25

My Brother

I was going back and reading some of the other people's posts and I saw some about brothers, which made me stop and think of my own. He's in the Army in Afganistan right now and I miss him so much. But what really hurts me is seeing how much my mom and his wife are hurting (his wife is Jessica Brice formerly Jessica Tebes, graduated '07 if any of you know her). Thats why I was so glad to hear of some good news from my mom today, he had been on a mission in Afganistan and we hadn't heard from him in awhile but he finally contacted us and told us what happened. He was there with other soldiers trying to get the Taliban but somehow they found out the American soldiers were coming so they left. When my brother and his unit got there they gave medicine and food to all the local people, and little kids were waving at them and giving thumbs ups (which made him feel really good) but as they were leaving the Taliban attacked, luckily my brother's unit outnumbered and defeated them :) I'm so happy but at the same time SO worried.

Frustrated

I don't know why but I've been getting easily upset these past two days. I got in a big argument with my mom last night and she took my phone :( I went phone-less all day and it sucked big time, I can't imagine how i used to do it in middle school. I didn't know what time it was, I couldn't text, and in 7th period I needed light to write by and I realized how I've taken that phone for granted. I don't know when I'm going to get it back either, which makes things worse. But I guess it's not the end of the world. Today was Shattered Dreams but I didn't get to see it because I'm a sophomore, so I can't wait until my senior year when they do it again.

Part Three of Random Story

Part Three [Beth]

And like the usual back at his old school he was on one important, not a star sports player because he didn’t much care for sports, and not an outstanding all A+ student because he didn’t much care how his grades looked, and not a drama or music major because he didn’t much like school musical, and he was not in a club of any kind because he didn’t like to stay up at school after hours all the time even though he did have to stay after a lot because of different reasons like having detention or not really wanting to go home, and he wasn’t in any art classes although every one that did talk to him said he should be in one but he didn’t because he didn’t want other people telling him what to draw all the time.

Uniforms?

Uniforms? What I’m in charge of uniforms? Since when did this happen? I thought Ryan was supposed to be in charge of the summer and fall baseball team uniforms? Apparently I was wrong; I have to find great cheap quickly made uniforms. Well, none of those things truly add up. As a result, I went to Nikeid.com and found Jerseys that have our number, name, GP, Gophers, a baseball sign, and even a place to personalize three little cool circles. And all of that for just $40’s, but no that’s not good enough, so instead the other alternative is a blue sticky shirt that would cost me $60’s because my last name is eleven letters long…

Austin Castleberry

weekend

So this weekend was a lot of fun I went to the banquet on Saturday, the whole thing was just overwhelming we laugh we cried we laughed. The food was great I had chicken fried steak with mash potatoes and gravy. Sunday was busy at night I went to the little carnival at terry’s , with Roberto and his younger cousin ,who won two fishes. After we got on the fairs wheel it was a pretty strange ride. Normal Fairs wheel tend to go somewhat slow will this wheel of light was a tad bit faster then usual every movement the ride would make an awful noise but I had a good time.

Thoughts

Have you ever just sat down to think? To just clear your mind and really try to understand whats going on in your life?Today is one of those days you just sit around thinking and trying to reevaluate what you're going through, at least for me it is.the shattered dreams thing really opened my eyes to a lot . I've realized that i spend too much time worrying about how I'm SUPPOSED to live my life that I'm forgetting to live it. if i can only see one brush stroke of a master piece i miss out on an entire work of art. however today has really changed the way I'm thinking. i have a lot to be thankful for. i have pretty good grades,a solid future, a wonderful family, great friends and Trent, whose clearly a truly amazing person.I'm glad our school had the ability to do shattered dreams. i think that it will help and reach a lot of people. i know for sure that it helped me .

Why do people fear death?

I dont understand why people fear their own deaths. I understand if you fear a loved one dying or something like that but your own death, come on now. Life is just like love, it does not last forever so dont get used to it. Most of the times when people die its unexpected so why try make plans when you are 95 when you havent even turned 20 yet. Thats why you should live life to the fullest because you might not be able to tomorrow. But why fear death when its part of life? Its going to happen so why fear and avoid it? Personally i dont care when i die because i know its bound to happen sooner or later. Plus i lived a happy life. I have a wounderful family,even though they arent perfect, great friends, and have done more than i ever thought i could do. So dont fear death because it will soon come to you. Take advantage of your life because you cant choose when it will end.